it's all about him .

   For a few minutes you made me feel as though I actually meant something to someone.We are afraid to care to much, for fear that the other person does not care at all. People think it is holding on that makes you stronger, but sometimes it's letting go. I made a choice to finally let go, because I can't stand the pain, it's time for my last tear to fall and smile again. So , from now on .. when you think of me just remember that I could've been the best thing you ever had. You wonder why I don't talk to you anymore and please believe me when I say it's not that I don't want to, it's just that everything I want to say I can't tell you anymore. I don't know which I would rather believe , that you never did care or that you eventually stopped. While I was holding on all you did was let go. The worst feeling in the world is knowing you've been used and lied to. Frustrated because I can't tell if it's real. Mad because I don't know how you feel. Upset because we can't make it right. Sad because I need you day and night. Angry because you won't take my hand. Aggravated because you don't understand. Disappointed because we can't be together, but still I'll love you forever. Maybe they are right. Maybe I did get my hopes up too high. Maybe I was in over my head. Maybe I am the stupid one for ever thinking that you loved me, but maybe, just maybe, I am tired of being alone ..